I have a couple of extra days off this weekend. I am tired. I don't know where Sunday went. We did get the deck furniture put away - for that I am glad. The son cut the lawn. Each week he articulates he hopes it is the last cut of the season. I am working on the laundry. And baking some oatmeal/ cranberry cookies. I am going to meet a friend for coffee. My head is full and my heart is empty.
We are dealing with grade 10 math and science. Making choices. Hard conversations. What makes a righteous life. Guiding our children forward. Recognizing that we are ultimately NOT in control. Leaning into each other for support. My son and daughter are so different. They have always been close but there is a big divide right now. Both, are struggling - - we cannot fully support either adequately. In fact, I feel as though I am flying by the seat of my pants in the parenting department. I am thankful for my husband. He is a rock. Steady. He reminds me to hold on. Keep the faith. We call upon our friends.
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Did I tell you that when I took the marriage and family course the teacher refered to time of parenting teens to be like white water rafting where it is unperdictable, white rapids and all you can do is hold on to the raft?
Hang in there. I am so glad you are talking to them and having the conversations.
Hugs and prayers.
you know , I don't for a second take for granted that my girls do well in school, my son, not so much.
He was never failing, but never worked to his ability , and it was frustrating and then some. His first year of university , that he just squeaked into , he was completely unmotivated and lost the year. He is now at a college nearby,living on his own still, doing what's considered a BA , but of course it sort of only is , and is thriving. The stress in a house of mostly high achievers , mainly my husband , was unbelievable. Tears , anger, and more tears.
peace to you in this... it is so difficult to know when to try to maintain control and when to let it go.
hugs.
lean on me.
We are at the same place, only world's apart. Think of you daily.
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