#reverb10 December 20

Prompt:  Beyond avoidance.  What should you have done this year but didn't because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing?  (Bonus:  Will you do it?)

Author - Jake Nickell

What should I have done?   I am not a big fan of "the shoulds".  I didn't.  Figure out why and move forward.  

We are going to revisit familiar territory here.  I didn't commit or execute regular exercise because I am under the illusion that it takes too much time.  It is my intention to mindshift the way I approach exercise.  I am going to admit that it takes time, but it is something critical to my well being.  I got the results of my spinal MRI yesterday and my back is messed up.  Yep. Pretty much figured that out on my own.   The irony of the situation is that now I am feeling pretty good and acute phase has passed.  So now is the time to gently introduce exercise back into my life.  Both of the physicians in my world have cautioned me from taking on too much too quickly.... so gentle exercise daily.  Crucial to overall well being and mobility.  Lose a few pounds.  That will help too. 

I did not maintain a daily writing routine.  I did write.  Just not daily.  But, there was a lot of crap going down in our lives.  I wrote through it when I could.  I made notes to write about later.  I accepted the fact that now might not be the time to write.  Now is the time to live through it.  I can reflect upon it later.  I make no promises here. 

I am stronger now.  I know I am stronger.  I have been tested and stood standing.  Through the grace of God and my friends.  I am ready to go.