Thursday, April 07, 2011

lavendar ...lavender


Thursday - half way through the work week.  More than halfway through school.  I am feeling slightly overwhelmed on behalf of my daughter.   She worked till 11 pm.  She has a math quiz, and in class English essay and a Socials test.  All today - along with a dance critique that is due.  Part of her stress is poor planning on her part - that is not her strength.  She also doesn't like when I jump in and organize her life because it makes her feel even less capable.... so we dance our way through,... she will figure it out.  But, I feel for her because I despise the feeling that you are barely able to keep your head above water. 

My son has his own worries too.  Which he shared with me - which is hard for him.  He is not a sharer.  I am hoping he sensed my support.  Again.  More more important to listen rather than offer my interpretation of the event or my solution.  Sometimes solutions are overrated.

I wish I could make their lives easier.  I hope they are learning to stand firm in the discomfort and work their way through.  I hope they see that I struggle with the same challenges and survive.  Bruised but alive.  Does that sound dramatic and over stated?  Life can be a tough go.  But, there are moments of joy and peace.  I am learning that we take the joy and peace and bliss as it comes - they carry us through the difficult bits - and so it goes.  There is no other path but that one.   Ebb and flow.

6 comments:

Anna Ander said...

You're wonderful. That's that. And I'm sure they can feel it.

Mimi said...

I agree with Anna. Hugs, though, I know it is hard, and I know I carry those things too.

I also love lavender, and always spell it wrong too :)

Lots of love and prayers. We are deep in Lent, and it shows.

Jess said...

Gosh, I remember that feeling from high school so vividly - things seemed so hard and frustrating. Hang in there - I can imagine it's just as hard for the parents!

Lil'M said...

How fitting, then, that you put lavender as your picture for today - known for its calming qualities.

Peace go with you, sister.

Mr. P said...

yup.



wv:plarc

blackbird said...

I hear you.
(They do too.)

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