Tuesday, July 17, 2012
here, there, everywhere
I talk about ebb and flow a lot here. Up and down. Forward and back. Change is constant. Life is fluid. Some days I am on my game. Others days, I feel like I am barely treading water.
Routine and rhythm to the days are important to me. I like structure. I tend to impose a fair bit on myself, but there are days when I struggle to do basic tasks. When I rail against my own rules.
There are days like today when I wish I had not given up my holidays. Where the unknown looms ahead and scares me. I pretty much tossed job security out the window. I wanted something different. I have that now. And let's be really clear. I LOVE my new job. But, self doubt creeps in and gnaws at my insides. I also know, that it is very early in the game. There is still so much to learn and I am still so new in my position. I KNOW all of that.
So it goes.