on the personal narrative and change

Today was not a particularly stellar day.   Full of self doubt.  Second guessing.  I hate second guessing.  I work very hard not to rethink a decision that has been made and effected.  Because, well it has been made.  You can't go back.  But, I can go forward.  I certainly am not standing still. 

I had it pretty good.  I had a safe job.  Lots of holidays.  Lots of sick time built up.  Was it secure?  Well not really.  But, it felt more secure than my new job feels right now.  I had an office with a door I could shut.  I knew what I was doing.  I had built up a good referral network and I was trusted.  But, I walked away from all of that.  I walked because I needed to do something different.  I needed to be engaged.  I need to remember that.

I was struggling.  I need to remember that too. 

And there are no guarantees in life.  I have this life to lead.  I am grateful I pushed on the doors and they opened.  I am glad I took the leap.  I will remember to breath.  

My word for this year is strength.  Kind of blows me away when I think of all the things I have experienced in 2012. 

Christina Rosalie tweeted this
If you long for it, lean towards it. 

I am surrounded by good folks who are full of encouraging words. Take risk.  Do not play it safe.
Dare to try.  Step up.  Show up.  Ship.

So.  I am. Going to make it work.